LOS ANGELES (REUTERS) – Grammy-winning singer Billie Eilish has spoken about an dependancy to watching pornography, beginning at age 11, and the way it gave her nightmares and messed her up when she began courting.
Eilish, who turns 20 on Saturday, was talking on The Howard Stern Present on Sirius XM radio on Monday.
“I feel porn is a shame. I used to look at quite a lot of porn, to be trustworthy. I began watching porn after I was, like, 11,” the Unhealthy Man singer mentioned, saying it helped her really feel as if she have been cool and “one of many guys.”
“I feel it actually destroyed my mind and I really feel extremely devastated that I used to be uncovered to a lot porn,” she added, saying she suffered nightmares as a result of a number of the content material she watched was so violent and abusive.
Eilish, who was homeschooled in Los Angeles and has seven Grammy Awards, is thought for her typically darkish lyrics.
Within the ballad Male Fantasy on her second album Happier Than Ever, she sings about being dwelling alone and distracting herself with pornography as she recollects a damaged relationship.
Eilish mentioned she is now indignant at herself for pondering it was OK to look at a lot porn.
“The primary few occasions I, you realize, had intercourse, I used to be not saying no to issues that weren’t good. It was as a result of I assumed that is what I used to be alleged to be interested in,” she mentioned.
Eilish, who began her profession carrying dishevelled garments to stop individuals from commenting on her physique, turned the youngest particular person in historical past to win all 4 of the highest Grammy Awards in the identical 12 months when she took dwelling the statuettes for brand spanking new artist, album, file and tune of the 12 months in 2020 at age 18.
The singer mentioned her fame had made it arduous up to now.
“It is actually arduous to satisfy individuals when, you realize, persons are both fearful of you or suppose you are out of their league,” Eilish instructed Stern.